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this is meh!

...golly wow-wow-type of gurl..,knows nothing but to make other people happy and to make them remember how nice she is...(not bragging..)

 

...a kind of person who prefers to smile even if her heart is aching than to explain why she is sad...

 

..i am very COMPASSIONATE and loooves to stay around with my loved-ones..

 

...i can be patient to the people who are close to my heart and can be a martyr for them... might be too much but i loved it..

 

...being single forever doesnt really bother me a lot...

 

..i love thinking a lot about anything and everything..just random thoughts..

 

...i hate cockroach!! eeeeekkkkkkk......!!!

 

...i love seeing my friends and family happy and..hmmnn...better?..yeah...

 

..crying is my way of expressing my deepest feelings.. i love to cry..mababaw luha ko...gusto ko mdrama masyado..

...i love to cry...

 

..i think i love too much i became selfish...

 

..love for me is not fair...never been fair... it always gets you hurt..gives you pain and makes your life miserable....it's the pessimist in me that says that.... the optimmist in me keeps on bugging me that it makes you happy even for a short time...get's you melancholic once in a while...and takes you to heaven...with him... ooouucchh!!!

 

...i think people see me as a strong person,gay and mysterious..i always get "maldita impression" feedback from my acquaintances..

 

...IT DOeSNT bOTHER mE IN the sLightest if PeOple doN'T thInk i'm Nice...i DoN't THiNk i AM EitheR...wehehehe!

 

..i don't really worry too much about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself...each day has enough trouble of its own. After all,today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday...

 

that's me...that's how i am...that's what i am...that's who i am...that's me...bow!

    

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it's just life happening..it may be ur choice but it's still life that bringing you to that fate so try to play along...

wnna say something?!

I know that life is a fast paced game and I think i am moving too slow to stay on the flow. There are lots of things that make me a step behind, family problems, peer pressure and my own weaknesses. Resolving the first two could be difficult if the latter roots its cause. I'm trying to deal with my own monster but it seem I cant beat it. I can't find a room in myself where i can feel what i wanted to feel. All are occupied with frustrations, loneliness, sorrows, fear and jealousy. Beside all those things, I'm keeping a positive outlook in life and MOVE ON

things to do for the person u love

October 30, 2009

Be your best friend.
Get caught with you in the rain.
Dance with you in the rain.
Stargaze on a clear night.
Watch the sunset together.
Spend all day with you doing nothing.
Moonlit walks on the beach.
Do a crossword together.
Go to brunch.
Have a disagreement (it could/will only make us stronger).
Watch a bad movie together.
Spend the rest of my life with you.
Have our picture taken together.
Eat ice cream with you.
Make love to you passionately.
Go to a museum together.
Talk to each other using only body language.
Give you space when you need it.
Accept you totally and completely - flaws and all (I already do).
Carve our names into a tree/table.
Go for a walk at dusk together.
Be one with you.
Send you a singing telegram.
Hold you and gaze into your eyes and realize how much I love you…and tell you.
Blindfold you and take you somewhere romantic.
Spend my life making you happy.
Spend my life making our family happy.
Feel your heartbeat.
See our unborn child/children in your eyes.
Go roller/ice skating together.
Give you a backrub just because.
ALWAYS being honest with each other.
Go hiking/camping together.
Have our first fight, make up and feel a stronger bond because we very successfully weathered the storm - together.
Marry you.
Laugh at someone together.
Share a plate of spaghetti.
Give you a stuffed animal just because.
Go on a fun family vacation and bring back the kind of memories movies are made of.
Count thunder together during a thunderstorm.
Cook your favorite meal/meals.
Know you better than you know yourself.
Plant a tree in our yard together.
Look over at you during an office/military/family party and have you know without me saying a word - that I love you.
Be able to say “I love you” in 89 different ways - in 89 different countries.
Hold you when you’re at your saddest and comfort you when you need it the most.
Be the one you come to for that comfort and holding.
Wipe away the days’ stresses and issues, with just one hug/kiss.
Grow old with you.

 

… You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I, don’t wanna wake up from you Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true My guilty pleasure I ain’t goin nowhere Baby, long as you’re here I’ll be floating on air cause you’re my, you’re my…. You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I, don’t wanna wake up from you…

 

 

… You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I, don’t wanna wake up from you Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true My guilty pleasure I ain’t goin nowhere Baby, long as you’re here I’ll be floating on air cause you’re my, you’re my…. You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare Either way I, don’t wanna wake up from you…

 

 

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ranting at myself

October 28, 2009

NO AMOUNT of talking, experience or reasoning
with him can get him to feel the way you want him
to feel.

    You can’t change a man’s emotional depth and
where he’s at in his life.

    “Getting him back” is a bad idea.

It’s a losing battle, and you’re going to end
up being hurt or upset again as you undoubtedly
keep moving farther and farther away from what YOU
ideally want and closer and closer to whatever
strange and unhealthy situation he’s creating.

 

IT DOESN’T WORK!

Don’t be “that girl” zhan…

 

–ranting at myself before going home..office,10/28/09..in my station..

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Scorpio with Aquarius . . .

October 18, 2009

Scorpio with Aquarius . . .

ScorpioInstinctive, intuitive, sensitive and intense Scorpio does not have much in common with intellectual, rational and friendly Aquarius. What they do have in common will not help the relationship work. They are both stubborn and unyielding and sometimes incapable of seeing the other person’s point of view.

Scorpio
Where Scorpio is independent but possessive, Aquarius is independent and aloof. Where Scorpio becomes attached emotionally, Aquarius prefers friendly detachment. Both are generally intelligent people and there can be a lot of magnetism here, but Scorpio can never possess Aquarius.

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darn!

October 17, 2009

October 17 2009 3:05PM Office station ko..

They always say “move on,let him go. He has his own life and you have your own to mind as well. He has moved on so stop holding on”. Has he really moved on yet? What about me? When will that be? It’s really  easy said than done. If only i could say to this stupid-beating-heart-sized alien in my left chest to just “stop beating for him”, then i would sincerely do that right now. With no hesitation at all. I would gladly do that  to stop it from constantly bleeding. What a life! Freakin’ heart! Life sucks. He said,life is meant to be fun. How i can enjoy it when he took it away from me? Oh happiness! Darn!

He’s a real heartbreaker. A certified one. He’ll break into your life and tear you apart. Nothing can ever compare that feeling of betrayal. No one can ever say that it’s gonna be the same. Time might heal all the wounds but it will leave scars from the past. Scars will be there to remind me that he has been a part of my life and nobody can deny that. And that fact cannot be erased. It will forever be there. Part of me. But not for him.

There are times that i would think that i shouldn’t have gave in. That ill give it more time. That i’ll be immuned and get used  to it. But nope. That didn’t happen because i don’t understand at all. I would be hypocrite if i would continue nodding without understanding. That’s nonsense! It’s like reading without comprehension,ayt? Just like having sex without emotion. Hahaha! What a horrible idea zhan!   Yes,getting used to it would be hypocrisy. He has been consistent of giving those cold treatments. I don’t know if knowing why would help but damn!.. I can’t be miserable my whole life. Damn!

 

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serious

i seriously need a hug today…

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